Dilema Wanita Melayu Terakhir

Keh keh keh.. cam lawak jer lah bunyi tajuknyer.. Nak tau pasal apa? Check it out..
Di satu pagi yg dingin, baru jer punch card, baru nk letak bag dan tk sempat duduk lagi. Dtg lah akak receptionist cum operator.
-Yue, ada orang kirim salam kat ayue.
+Erk... (terkedu)
-Akak cuma sampaikan jer, klu tk sampaikan nnt akak berdosa plak.
+Saper yg kirim salam?
-Karang lah akak citer (dan lgsung blah..)
Tghari, bukan lah excited sgt nk tau pun, tp curious jugak saper lah orangnya. Sah ni mesti orang dlm company ni jugak. So, korek punya korek, terbongkarlah.. tp aku tak rasa apa2 pun hehe.. cam biasa jugak. Dah lali. Tak affect kat diri lgsung. Akak2 ni sibuk promote, budak tu baiklah, btanggungjawablah, entah apa2 lagi lah. Derang ni cam tk serik2 nk gu kan aku dgn orang entah dh baper ramai. Tp nk wat camna, tak terbukak lagi hati.
Di satu petang yg sunyi.. hari yg sama. SMS punya citer
-HAI APA KHABAR?
+Kabo baik, saper ni ek?
-RUMIE
+Ooo.. tp saya x kenal awak. Camna awak leh dpt no hp saya ni?
-RAHSIA, TAKKAN NAK BERKENALAN PUN TAK BOLEH?
+Bukan x boleh tapi mcm x ikhlas jer klu berahsia2 cam 2.
-Sebenarnya saya malu nk berkenalan ngan awak.
A'enna apa citer ni. Memula aku pk budak yg kirim salam pagi tadi. So, aku tanyalah beberapa org staff klu derang tau no hp saper ni. Tp tak der yg tau, tp dpt clue psl ada a few staff lain yg nomornya dekat2 sama ngan nomor org anto sms ni. Ni tak lain mesti budak dlm kilang jugak. Tp saper plak yg tau no hp aku? Rasanya adalah 3-4 org jer yg tau no aku ni. Itu pun org ofis, org production plak bes fren aku sorang jer yg tau. Mls nk pk, aku tanya akak operator, dia ada ke kasi nomor aku kat sapa2, tp dia kata tak der. So aku mintak tlg dia carikan saper punya nomor tu. Kejap jer, bukak muka surat pertama buku, terus jumpa. Dan rupa2nya orang satu dept ngan besfren aku. Bukan budak yg kirim salam pg tadi. Yang ini SUAMI ORANG! Aku jd kompius, takkan besfren aku yg aku percaya tu sdiri yg jaja no hp aku? Aku mula nak naik angin, dah ler tgh menses ni, mood aku mmg hancur skit. Aku bls sms
+Ini En. HHH kan? Ooo.. saya dah check dgn kak nor, ni no saper. Kemain lagi, nk wat lawak ari jumaat dgn saya. Ni msti curi no hp saya ni dr hp A (besfren aku)
-Ala, takkan nak gurau pun tak leh kot?
Aku telefon besfren aku dgn marah2. Dia kata bukan dia yg kasi no aku. Mgkin betul, aku rasa mungkin en HHH tu curi dr hp A psl A pun penah ngadu yg colleague dia selalu tk amanah godeh hp dia. Tp beberapa org staf opis mula cucuk aku. Derang kata, A tu budak baik, tak mustahil mmg dia sdiri yg kasi. Tp untuk apa? Kompius lah aku cam ni. A pun dh tak balas2 sms mau pun contact aku smpi skrg. Ada plak staf cakap kat aku yg spatutnya aku layan jer sms tu lama skit, lps tu, baru basuh cukup2. Tp aku ni malas dah nak memanjang2kan citer. Byk lg keje lain nk buat, dan tak kuasa aku nk abiskan duit kredit aku semata2 nk layan sms yg merapu2 tu. Org lain mungkin boleh, tp dgn aku.. kim salam jer lah. Buatnya org tu sengaja nk test aku, tak ke nnt aku dicop perempuan gatal pasal layan dia.
-Adoii.. pening saya ngan pe'el orang2 kilang ni.
+Nk wat camna yue, dah awak sorang jer anak dara Melayu kat kilang ni.
-Alahai, saya yg serebeh2 camni pun ada org nak ker? Tak mekap, tak seksi, pakai baju gedoboh2, tak pakai high heel.
+Ayue jgn tak tau, kat kilang ni kamu lah yg plg top tau tak. Klu saya pegi production, mesti ada jer yg bcakap, derang jealous mentang2 sy kat ofis duduk sblh kamu.
-Ishk, mengerikan..
+Nak tau, kat production luar tu, ada beberapa orang yg tgh fight..
-Ya ampun (dh mcm bibi endon umah mak cik aku plak).. tak penah tau pun.
Mencinyeeerr!!! Aku dah tak larat lah nk lari dari orang2 ni sumer. Biler baik skit, mula lebih2. Buat baik salah, buat jahat salah. Laki2 orang ni yg aku tak larat tu. Pk2 aku rasa kesian kat besfren aku tu. Yer lah, psl aku close ngan dia, ramai plak orang yg sisihkan dia psl sakit hati dan cemburu, tak kurang jugak yg pergunakan dia.
Nilah konflik tmpt keje, aku ni klu buleh mmg nk buat baik ngan sumer org, nk jaga maruah dan perilaku dpn orang. Yer lah aku nk jaga nama mak bapak aku, tapi.. tengok lah apa dah jadi. Salah aku ke cam ni? Mak, tolong lah anakanda mu ini..

Find myself the right time for blogging

SANGAT BZ !!! Probably the right phrase to describe my life in this few weeks. Penat kenduri kawin Nor baru2 ni pun belum habis. And this weekn we are going to Johor Jaya, untuk kenduri sebelah pihak lelaki plak.
Actually now, i should be going lunch with my friend, Mur. But.. apa buleh buat, suddenly i found a car parked behind my car, blocking my car and to make it worse, kereta tu pulak rosak, tak leh start lgsung. Huwaaa !!! card dah punch, tpaksa call muryati and told her to cancel our lunch together. We can arrange for other time.
Here, at my workplace, tgh ada upacara sembahyang sempena Hungry Ghost Festival. So, org2 Buddha ni tgh sibuklah skrg. Bakar2 kertas, sembahyang mintak nombor, sembahyangkan barang2 makanan yg kemudiannya will be distributed among the staff.
Oh yeah, just to inform that i failed the Shell interview. Sedih sgt2, kecewa sgt2. Tp nk wat camna, derang tu yg rugi tak nak terima org yg bagus cam aku ni. (positive thinking lah kononnya). But one of my weakness, yg khabonyer mmg semulajadi sifat seorang Pisces, iaitu pendendam. Now i didn't ever go to Shell petrol kiosk, terus stop dan skrg dh pakai petronas jer. Aku ni jrg nk terasa hati tp sesekali sakit hati tu mmg teruk padahnya. But i try to overcome that sort of feeling, tak baiklah cam tu kan?
A lof of things to told you guyz.. about the kenduri kawin jer mau berjela2, dan macam2 lagilah.. But i need to find the right time to sit down and pour down all the story and of coz, jgn ada org kacau, kang ilang mood plak.. tapi biler ek?

welcome to my workplace

The cat is not around, so the mouse go out play and dance lah. Yiba yiba anggre anggre.. hehe. My boss is not around and will not be around until wednesday next week. Haha.. actually he is in or not, nothing change and i prefer if he is in. Why? a lot of people feel so good so free when their boss is not around, right? Being in my place, i'd rather choose he to be in, coz i hate of taking care of his job. So, let him do his job and i do mine, we are not even bother about each other.. hehe.
I am quite bz this month with a lot of things to be think of and settled. Just to name few, i need to handle three groups of visitors to our factory. Last week, we had 50 students from Sek Men Tmn Tun Aminah. Last two weeks, we had 10 representatives from UTM and just now, we welcomed about 20 students from KUITTHO. I dont know why a lot of people coming to our factory. We are not a glamourous factory. Probably because of our business activities and a good record of handling visitors. Once we also welcomed staff from Hospital Permai, Tampoi, students from Sek Men Dato' Penggawa Timur and so forth. I was not playing important role in the programs but a simple help. But, i learn a lot.
Aiyargh.. one o'clock already. I need to go back. See you in the next entry. Bye.

Back To 80's

I wrote this entry on a piece of paper while watching 80-an Gerek on Suria Channel a few days ago. I wanted to paste this entry earlier but hardly find a free time. Gosh, i love this 80-an Gerek very much. Recently i dun know why i feel so good and comfortable listening to the songs of 80's. They are so evergreen, giving me some sort of flasback to the old days when i was still a small kid. I regard them as one of the most relaxing and perfect material for my leisure time especially when i really want to be alone. Unfortunately, i missed the 1st episode of this show last week featuring Jay Jay. For this week, they have Alleycat. Va va va.. Loga and David were amazingly good, with the same powerful voices, the same afro image and not to forget the 'Terima Kasssiihh!!' style. Besides, they were so sporting and funny too. I enjoyed this show very much and the compliment goes to Najip Ali who really did a good job. He was so creative and never disappoint me with his crazy idea just like the late Kopi O Teh Tarik together wih Cik Sal Boleh (Erra Farida). Some sort of shows that will never pass to be played on our local TV.
I love all the songs sang that night. Hingga Akhir Nanti, Seribu Bintang, Kerana Kau, Sekiranya Ku Tahu, just to name a few. The participants in the karaoke segment were so damn talented. Well Done, you delivered the songs very well, guyz. I start to love all the80's songs since Ria keep playing them as a promo for one of new release album, featuring Flybaits, BDB, Gingerbread etc. Listening to them everyday made my heart grow fonder. I began to love back all the songs by Fran. Once i used to love Sekadar Di Pinggiran very much but it will remind me to a miserable memory so now, i prefer Ku Ke Udara Lagi.
I remember very well, two weeks ago, i enetered Music Valley at Pasir Gudang Complex. I couldn't stop my eyes from searching the 80's album and then i stuck on a few cassetes which were the compilation of 80's, Seribu Bintang if i am not mistaken. I also found The compilation of Gingerbread and Flybait, The Best Of Fran and 1st album of Liza Hanim (my favourite singer). I was so confused to decide which one should i buy. If only i was a rich chap, dun worry, i'll buy the whole store hehe. So, guess what, instead of buying one, i ended up buying nothing!! I seldom bought something that was not included in my plan earlier. But don't worry, i'll sure buy myself one some day. So, if anyone of you is thinking about giving present to me, please consider those music albums. Put them on your top list and i'll extremely happy and treasure them very much.. mmuuaahhss..

I feel like talking

Assalamualaikum.. Hi there..
Amazing!! No Monday blues today as usual. My day began so smooth and fine. Woke up at 5.50, did some ironing, bath, packing up all my stuff to bring back to Pasir Gudang.
Then, 'celur' some noodles. Today, we (my officemates and i) gonna have Mee Kari for lunch and i was asked to bring the noodles. What a silly girl, i have no idea about the right way to 'celur' the yellow noodles.. Huwaaa!! What a shame. I never like yellow noodles or i call them mee beso, so i never ever cook that kind. Should i do the same thing i did to bihun, boil some water on the stove and dip the mee. My mum told me that i should not do that way coz the mee will be very 'benyek'. So how? Just pour hot water on the mee for a short time and throw away the water shortly. Ooohh, like that ke? hehe..
Time for facial. Nothing much, just apply some Oxy acne cream, Olay Whitening Cream, and finished by Johnson talcum. Huhu, for ur info, my face skin is very bad and ugly right now especially at the area near to my ears. A lot of pimples there. You know why, becoz of my heavy physical exercise. I used tudung every time i went to gym or aerobic class and sweating very much. And the sweat trapped between my tudung and face which eventually cause the pimples. Huh.. so ugly. So, started from last week, i only wear small scarf to my aerobic class. Actually i didn't use Shadira for quite a long time. When i stop using it, my face start facing the old problem. Arghhh.. i cant afford buying the set again or i'll go bankrupt. The set is very expensive u know, and in the small size!! So, i end up starting to try the cheaper one, which happen to be OLAY products. Before this, a lot of people compliment OLAY but i 'jual mahal'. So for the start, i am using the Whitening Radiance which so far, i think it's good. I never feel oily on my skin and after this, im gonna try the cleanser and lotion as well.
What a long story about facial. Back to my morning at home. I had my breakfast with a piece of 'karipap' and red bean 'pau'. Then, collect all my things (shoes, aerobic mat etc) from abah's car and put them back in my car coz today i'm gonna haf my car back. Yeah !! Last week, i used abah's car as my car road tax was not ready yet. Before going to work, mak gave me a plastic full with rambutans, yahuuu!! She asked me to give it too Cik Al but i still can take some for myself or for my officemates too.
The traffic was so smooth this morning, no more congestion. And i enjoy myself driving to work while listening to Exist. It is the 1st album of Exist with the hits Untukmu Ibu, Rahsia Pohon Cemara etc. Then, tuned to 107.5 (JB)or 105.7 (Radio Muzik). Recently, i haf no mood on listening other channels that hav a lot of talkings. I hate that. So, i prefer the channel with a lot of songs that make me feel better at heart. *sigh* I am very sensitive lately and getting more emotional. My weekn at home was filled with watching Hindustan movie. Saturday, i watched a Hindi movie on TV2 (cast by Abishek Bachan), yesterday- Hindi Movie on Central Singapore (Ye Kaisi Mohabbat Hai) and last night, i watched Koi Mil Gaya, my own VCD. Damn it, the speaker got some problem so no audio output from my pc. But i didnt care a bit and still enjoy watching the silent movie. Huhu.. u crazy girl.
Emmm.. something wrong with my tongue. Can we call it burned? Last week when i went to JB with Nor and Cik Al, we had our dinner at Sedap Corner Kotaraya. I had Bihun Crispy Ratna for myself. It was looking good and i couldn't wait to try it, so what happen? Vavavaa.. it was too hot, but i couldn't let it out from my mouth. Aduuuh makk !! Terbakar lidah aku sehh. Cik Al had Bihun Tomyam and it was good too. But the food there really expensive. Fortunately the taste were good and Nor was the one who payed or i'll curse them badly.. hehe. The same evening, we went to AZ Bridal, to do some fitting on Nor's wedding dress. Ahaaa.. so many aww aww guyz there hehe. And what a surprise, Nor got the same 'mak andam' yg mengandamkan faizal husin dan suhaila.. Hehe.. so proud to know that. When Cik Al and Nor was discussing with a guy there, i walk around and 'belek2' all the gowns and wedding stuffs, including the gown that had been weared by Suhaila termasuk bekas2 hantaran mereka. Huhu.. i thought AZ sponsored all the wedding stuff and gave them away to the couple. Hehe.. rupanya tak, i remembered an aww aww guy there told me 'mana bleh kak, kitorang kasi pinjam jer, pas tu amik balik lah. Klu tak, bengkrap ler'..
Hehe.. such a long 'karangan' i better stop now for lunch, babai..

I Dun Care

Hi guyz !!! Hows ur day? Well, as for me, allow me to say that i am doing fine right here eventhough some part of my heart are terribly in pain. Ahaaa.. nothing much but those are some old scars that remain still and will take a lot of time to recover. i wish heart is like our skin, in this era, so many techniques can be applied to remove ugly scars from the surface. Probably some scars remover cream or peeling cream, or a few session of putting on mud mask will work better and faster on my heart, who knowa.
After one week absent from my aerobic class, here i go again. I went to my aerobic class yesterday and i never feel so enthusisastic like yesterday. My stamina was so great and i didnt feel tired at all. With a lot of new steps especially during the song 'Made In India', i enjoyed the class very much and i wished the class will take longer time. Aerobic class is the one that really help me to temporarily forget all my stress. If only i can attend the class everyday *sigh*. I dun care about spending extra money for that, i dun care about the lady next to me during class who always 'overacting' and try to get special attention from the instructor and always 'kerek' like she is the best in the class. Huh.. lantak ko. I come to class not to show off, not to compete with anybody but i just do it for myself, i want to keep my body fit. That's all. I prefer natural movement but not the 'overacting' one, ok
My boss is not around, on leave. But he left me unfinished works, goshh.. I need to handle a problem regarding some missing debit note from our main system. Actually it has been a long time i didn't involve in this system as my boss is the one who handle it while i am assigned with other general task and application. So, gamble jer lah. Fortunately the problem was not serious at all and i manage to get it back accordingly.
This evening i am going to be a driver for Nor and Cik Al. We are going to JB to settle a few things to do with Nor's wedding day. We are going to AZ Bridal (the one who sponsored Faizal Hussin and Suhaila), then to KAMDAR to buy cloth which i dun have any idea the purpose. After that we are going to send a few invitation cards to a few friends around JB. Huh.. actually i dun like the idea of going this evening as this is Malam Jumaat ok. Well, i dun care about pray coz i had my menses now but still i dun like the idea.
Only a few days to Nor's wedding day. And i am quite bz helping this and that. Sometimes a bit stress coz people will always ask me about my own wedding day, when it's gonna happen? Arghh. like searching a husband is as easy as ABC.. I just lost hope and in the process of developing and planning my new life, so let it goes as plan and i'll think about marriage later.

Antara ada dan tiada

Just wanna share a lyric with you guyz. Currently, this is my feveret song. I like the melody since a long time ago as it has been playing as the theme song of one of my favourite drama on SCTV. Has the element of rock and i think the melody is somehow show that the singer try to release their tension (ada ke term cam ni, lantak lah). And i feel the same way too. So, lately, i try to look for the lyric and it happened that the lyric really reflect the way i feel!! Enjoy..
Setiap ku melihatmu
Kuterasa di hati
Kau punya segalanya
Yang aku impikan
Dan anganku tak henti
Bersajak tentang bayangmu
Walau kutahu
Kau tak pernah anggapku ada
Ku tak bisa menggapaimu
Takkan pernah bisa
Walau sudah letih aku
Tak mungkin lepas lagi
Kau hanya mimpi bagiku
Tak untuk jadi nyata
Dan segala rasa buatmu
Harus padam dan berakhir
Kau selalu, kurasa, hadirmu, antara ada dan tiada