Biler cuti makin hampir

What a hectic weeks.. *sigh* Agaknya perkara yang sama jugak berlaku kepada mana-mana organisasi. Bila dah nak dekat cuti perayaan, baru semua benda nak dipulun dan nak disettlekan secepat mungkin.

Tahun ni, tahun kedua aku beraya sebagai seorang pegawai kerajaan. Tidak adil rasanya untuk aku buat perbandingan. Tapi raya aku semenjak itu dah makin hilang semangatnya, pudar keseronokannya. Ramadhan semakin kurang dihayati, setiap hari terlalu banyak perkara yang nak dibereskan di pejabat. Balik dah penat.. terawikh cuma di rumah, kadang ada kadang tak.

Entahlah.. di pejabat ini, kesibukan dan kepenatannya bukan aku sorang yang terasa. Bos apa lagi, kadang tu satu hari sampai kena attend 3 meeting. Kesian dia.. smpi kan katanya kalau saya tak bersahur pagi tadi mesti dah tumbang. Dan yang pasti, sebelum meeting, report yang nk dibentangkan, aku kena prepare. Balik meeting, maklumbalasnya jugak aku nak kena hadap. Banyak sangat hal-hal addhoc yang menangguhkan banyak kerja-kerja lain. Aku dah tak tau nak buat apa.

Semalam mungkin the worst.. i had a meeting with YB Minister dan syarikat2 penaja dari seluruh Malaysia. Aku rasa aku dah prepare dan pulun punya bagus tp it turned out semuanya jadi caca merba. Last minutes, a lot of things yang tak der dalam agenda, kami kena buat dalam masa tak smpi stgh jam.. so what do you expect from the output. Aku rasa malu pun ada, bersalah pun ada. Kesian kat bos lah, dia yg nk kena menjawab. Tp aku tau dia faham situasi coz aku dh cukup perah tenaga utk itu semua. So, for the 1st time aku marah PPSM aku hanya kerana dia tak bawak projector dan laptop ke meeting room pada masa yg aku tetapkan. Smpi sekarang aku terpk adakah aku yg salah, tak cukup jelas ke arahan aku?

Dalam satu hari, 3-4 kali mesti aku kena menghadap di bilik bos.. smpi kan satu tahap tu biler aku lalu jer dpn bilik dia, tup tup dia keluar dan kata ”aikk lalu jer ker, kenapa tak singgah?” kelakar ada, geram pun ada. Biler dh mengadap tu ada jer lah keluhan2 yg aku kena dengar dan tugas2 yg aku terima. Aku tau dia risau, byk perkara yg KIV. Pegawai dia hampir semuanya baru, so apa2 kerja mesti nk consult dia.. termasuklah aku. Entahlah, aku dah tak tau camna lagi nak tolong bos aku. Aku rasa dah cuba sedaya upaya, adakah usaha aku masih tak cukup? Sampaikan satu tahap aku berdoa dlm sembahyang supaya diberi kekuatan pada bos aku dan semoga dipermudahkan segala urusan bahagian kami.

Yang pasti, smpi bila aku nk mcm ni? Hidup ni untuk kerja sahaja ker? Aku pun nk ada life cam orang lain. Biler EO aku sms bagi nasihat dan mintak aku bersabar.. aku terkedu dan rasa nak menangis. Dugaan di bulan Ramadhan.

What's wrong with my day?

The clock at the right bottom of my screen showing that now it is 6.48pm. Wow, I am not suppose to be here at this time. Well, it is normal if this is not a fasting month. SO???

Well, 1st, I haf a lot of things to be done. My IN tray is full with a lot of documents to be taking care of. Emm.. probably this is my own mistake for taking advantage of the absence of my boss this morning. I went to almost every department in this ministry to promote our Kelab Sukan & Kebajikan Raya Cards. The idea was from Kak Aieda, my friend in BTM, my boss in Unit Perhubungan & Penerbitan and she was also my senior in the Faculty Of Science Computer back in UTM a few years ago. Back to my stay back, yes I was wrong but actually I am proud to do that hehehe… I was never been good in marketing but this time, I put an effort to overcome the weakness and I proud to do so.

Actually I spent only about 2 hours for that, and after that, I really concentrated on my works. But I dun know why, maybe today is the problem day of all foreigner students in Malaysia. I received a lot of phone calls asking a lot of things even though I am not the one who is in charge. Some of them did not understand my words walaupun I was using simple2 punya words (of coz lah I dun know the bombastic2 ones hehe). Some of them called without saying anything.. eee geramnya. Some called but with not enough credit (if they were using hp) or not enuff coins (if they were using public phone), terbehenti2.

My staff keep coming in asking me to sign so many documents, adoiii.. To make it worse, I am in my second day of my menses, so dgn sakit perutnya… dgn sakit kepala.. oh my god. During my lunch hour, one of the senior officers asked me to to some urgent report presentation which is need to be presented to YB Minister at 4 o’clock. So, I rushed to do it immediately, and u know what.. I had to go to print the presentation handout in other department as my department’s colour printer is running out of toner. But…. When everything was done.. I was told that the presentation is cancelled. Can u imagine how would I feel? I had to took panadols (I am not fasting) lagi.

Around 4 o’clockl, I  managed to control myself and made everythings in order. I checked my official email after not checking it since this early morning. Unfortunately, my boss came in and asking “ Apa u tgh buat tu? “ I replied back “ tgh check email “ Katanya lagi, “ u patutnya banyak kerja lain boleh buat “ I fought back “Dari pagi tadi saya tak check email”. Eeeee.. Ya Allah Ya Rabbi, frust nyerrr. He didn’t know how what I had gone through since this morning, tetiba komplen cam tu.. sakit tak sakit hati ni.

So, i called Acik to inform her that I will be back a bit late. I want to settle all my works and send them to my boss early next morning to show him that I am committed to my works. Gerammm.. biar banyak, sampai dia tak ter semak.. Muahahaha

Checklist di situ Checklist di sini

Alhamdulillah, sudah seminggu kita menjalani ibadah puasa. Pagi ni terasa redup jer. Di ofis ni yang ada cuma aku, anis, yus dan nina.. hehe muka2 rajin di pagi Ahad. Ekceli kalau tak disebabkan charger hp yang ttinggal kat opis dan henpon yg dah kiok habis ni, maunyer aku masih lagi bermalas-malasan di rumah. Lagi lah pulak acik sekeluarga balik kampung di Gemencheh, syoknyer tidur smpi tghari.

So, alang2 dah sampai ni, buat lah kerja sikit2 mana yang patut. Checklist Senarai Induk Tugas dah nak kena buat baru, almaklum dah bulan baru. Ishk banyak juga kerja rupanya. Hari tu, 2 minggu rilek bos tak der, haa la ni hamik ko, pulun beb pulun. Jgn smpi bos remind 2-3 kali. Adoii, sedangkan masa tak salah apa2 pun, nak jumpa bos pun siap tawaf dua tiga kali depan depan bilik dia (mengumpul semangat), baru nak masuk.. ini kan pulak nak kena marah psl tak siap kerja.

Tu checklist tugas, checklist diri sendiri pun sbnrnya tak settle jugak. Dah berpuluh2 kali mengupdate checklist barang nak dibeli, tp smpi ke skrg, satu menda pun tak beli lagi. Ishk ok gak ni, tak luak duit camni. Tapi satu menda pun tak beli, nak raya haper camni? Nak tunggu balik Johor atau nak belasah dulu kat sini? Biler plak ek.. Alamatnya raya ni sumer menda adalah brand ’pasang siap’ dan cap ’tunjuk2’ ajer lah gamaknya.

Borang cuti dah isi, tiket bas pun dah beli. Eee.. tak sabo nyer nak balik kampung !!